Learning to Live with the "What Ifs" of Parenthood
By Dr. Jenn Merthe-Grayson, Licensed Clinical Psychologist
If you’ve ever found yourself lying awake, replaying your child’s day and wondering “Am I doing enough?” or “What if something happens?”—you’re not alone.
Those quiet, late-night thoughts often aren’t about your child at all; they’re about the deep uncertainty that comes with loving someone more than life itself.
That’s the paradox of parenting: the more you love, the more vulnerable you feel.
Our Minds Seek Control—But Parenting Defies It
Existential anxiety shows up when our instinct to protect collides with the truth that we can’t control everything.
So we overthink, over-schedule, over-worry.
We build routines to feel safe.
We scroll for parenting tips, hoping to find the “right” way.
But the antidote isn’t more control—it’s tolerating uncertainty with compassion.
Three Ways to Soften Existential Anxiety
Shift from “What if?” to “Even if.”
Instead of spiraling into What if something goes wrong? try Even if challenges come, I’ll meet them with presence and love.
This small language shift builds emotional resilience.Stay rooted in the ordinary.
The antidote to existential fear is presence. Notice the warmth of a hug, the sound of your child’s laughter, the light in their eyes when they tell a story. These are the moments that tether us to meaning.Revisit your values—not your fears.
Ask, What matters most in how I show up as a parent today? Acting from values (not anxiety) turns fear into purpose.
The Truth: You’re Not Supposed to Feel Peace All the Time
Parenthood isn’t meant to feel calm and certain—it’s meant to feel alive.
The fear, the tenderness, the ache of watching your children grow—it’s all evidence that you’re engaged in one of life’s deepest love stories.
When we stop trying to outthink uncertainty, we begin to experience the beauty of being here now.
About Dr. Jenn Merthe-Grayson
Dr. Jenn Merthe-Grayson, Psy.D., is a licensed clinical psychologist and founder of The Merthe-Grayson Center for Psychology and Wellness in Ohio. She helps parents, couples, and high-achieving individuals navigate emotional challenges and relationships with compassion and clarity.
Dr. Merthe-Grayson is currently accepting new patients and is in-network with Aetna, Medical Mutual, Cigna, Anthem Blue Cross Blue Shield, United Healthcare, and others.
Learn more or schedule an appointment at drjennmerthegrayson.com.
When Parenting Awakens Our Existential Anxiety
By: Dr. Jenn Merthe-Grayson
There’s a quiet kind of anxiety that most parents don’t talk about—not the daily worry about grades, screen time, or soccer tryouts, but the deeper unease that slips in during quiet moments. It’s the ache that surfaces when you watch your child grow taller, realize another year has passed, or feel the weight of knowing you can’t protect them from everything.
That’s existential anxiety—the awareness that life is fleeting, that control is limited, and that love always carries loss somewhere inside it. Parenting has a way of waking that part of us up.
Why Parenting Brings It to the Surface
When you become a parent, you suddenly have something (and someone) so precious that the fragility of life becomes impossible to ignore. Each stage—first steps, middle school independence, driver’s permits—reminds you that time moves forward whether you’re ready or not.
Parenting forces us to confront life’s biggest questions:
Am I doing enough?
What will happen to them when I’m gone?
How do I live fully while also keeping them safe?
These are not “neurotic” anxieties—they’re profoundly human ones. They remind us that love and uncertainty are intertwined.
How Existential Anxiety Shows Up in Parenthood
You might not name it as existential, but it often looks like:
Over-controlling or over-preparing (to ease the fear of the unknown)
Feeling guilty for missing moments, even when you’re doing your best
Emotional spikes when your child reaches a milestone (“How did we get here already?”)
A sense of disconnection or numbness—because feeling everything feels like too much
These are subtle signs that something deep in you is wrestling with impermanence.
Moving Through, Not Away From It
The goal isn’t to eliminate existential anxiety—it’s to learn to live with it gracefully. A few ways to start:
Name what’s happening. Sometimes simply acknowledging, “This is my anxiety about time and loss,” brings relief.
Anchor in the present moment. Grounding in your child’s laughter, their messy room, or the smell of dinner cooking can reconnect you to now—the only place life actually happens.
Create meaning. Existential therapy reminds us that meaning is the antidote to anxiety. Ask yourself: What kind of parent do I want to be today, in this season?
Let joy and grief coexist. Every stage your child grows into requires you to release the one before. Allow both emotions to live side by side.
The Gift Hidden Inside Existential Anxiety
When we stop fighting existential anxiety, it often transforms into gratitude. It reminds us that time is precious, connection is sacred, and that the ordinary moments—morning coffee with your teen before school, late-night talks, laughter in the car—are the ones that matter most.
Parenting doesn’t just grow our children; it grows us. It calls us to face life’s impermanence with tenderness, to love anyway, and to keep showing up—knowing that the ache we feel is proof of how deeply we care.
About Dr. Jenn Merthe-Grayson
Dr. Jenn Merthe-Grayson, Psy.D., is a licensed clinical psychologist and founder of The Merthe-Grayson Center for Psychology and Wellness in Ohio. She specializes in helping parents, couples, and high-achieving individuals navigate emotional challenges, relationships, and identity transitions with clarity and compassion.
Dr. Merthe-Grayson is now accepting new patients for both individual and couples therapy and is in-network with Aetna, Medical Mutual, Cigna, Anthem Blue Cross Blue Shield, United Healthcare, and others.
To learn more or schedule a consultation, email jmg@drjennmerthegrayson.com
⚽🏒 Beyond the Bleachers: Balancing Youth Sports, Parenting, and Partnership 💙
By: Dr. Jennifer Merthe-Grayson, Licensed Clinical Psychologist
If you’re a parent in the world of youth sports, you know the routine: late-night practices, weekend tournaments, endless carpools, and a calendar that looks like a patchwork quilt of games and commitments. 📅🚗 By the time you’ve packed the snacks, tied the skates, or found that missing shin guard, it can feel like there’s nothing left for yourself—or your partner.
But here’s the thing: your relationship matters just as much as the scoreboard. 🏆
The Sports Season Juggle 🎢
Parenting in the youth sports world can feel like a full-time job. Practices overlap with dinner, games land on holidays, and weekends become road trips instead of rest days. While your child is building skills, confidence, and friendships, parents often end up running on empty.
It’s easy to fall into “teammates” mode with your partner—coordinating logistics like an operations crew rather than connecting as two people who love each other. 💬➡️🗂️
Why Connection Still Counts ❤️
Couples who keep their relationship strong during busy seasons show their kids something powerful: love isn’t just about showing up for the team, it’s about showing up for each other. 💑 When you and your partner carve out moments for connection, you’re modeling balance, resilience, and healthy love.
Small Ways to Reconnect 🕒✨
Even with a packed schedule, connection doesn’t have to mean candlelit dinners or big getaways. Try:
The 10-Minute Huddle: A quick check-in before bed—no phones, just you two. 🛏️💬
Car Conversations: Use the drive home from practice for something other than logistics. Ask about dreams, not just schedules. 🚗🌙
Sideline Moments: Hold hands, share a laugh, or sneak a smile during the game. Small gestures matter. 👏🤝
Planned Timeouts: Schedule one evening a week—even 30 minutes—for something fun together. 🍷🎲
Final Thought 🌟
Youth sports teach our kids teamwork, dedication, and grit. But they can also teach us, as parents, about prioritizing connection in the chaos.
Because one day the seasons will end, the games will quiet, and what remains is the partnership you’ve nurtured along the way. 💙⚽🏒
Dr. Jenn Merthe-Grayson is a licensed clinical psychologist accepting many insurances including: Aetna, Medical Mutual, Anthem, Cigna, and United Healthcare. Reach out to schedule your appointment today!